Another Rainy Day & other Haikus

I woke up in the middle of the night with a mind filled with flowing words..
I have tried to form Haikus & freeverse. The poem may be read as one go, or as individual parts. I am presenting in the manner that i composed them.

Again it rained,
Memories pained:
and living feigned.

Life's a game
Of harbouring pain;
Limits of strain:
Numbness,
- insane.

Rain you came,
Awakening lost shame,
Remorse:
Intense-
and in vain.

Tainted I am,
Have everything I want,
And yet
A pauper's existence I flaunt!

Wishes derailed,
Trials failed.
Aspirations buried,
I'm not worried.

Internal strife,
Searching good life;
Grass always seems greener
on the other side!

I'm one of a kind,
A fuddled mind
Daily grind.

Looks betray,
Promises gone astray-
Bets lost
Life is the cost.

Chances & dances,
Risks and nuances;
Troubled waters
Crocodiles-
Waiting to slaughter.

Existence lost,
Persona distraught;
Rebuilding my life:
A huge gripe.

My Lamy runs,
Paper burns:
Thoughts the fuel
Restlessness
Pouring itself to cool

Another version of the last one is:

My Lamy runs,
Paper it burns:
Thoughts- the fuel
Restlessness
Making of a perfect fool!